jessy+m's+short+story

Jessica Mastandino __ The Knot __ media type="custom" key="2990930" Ring! Ring! Ring! She picks up the phone unsuspecting the news coming her way. “Hey, I have a weird important question for you?” questioned Breanna, “yes?” I stuttered, “How strong are your feelings for Dan? I mean how much do you like him?” That’s all I needed to hear, I knew exactly what she was getting at. Yet again my heart was left racing and my head was compacted with horrible thoughts and flashbacks. Speechless. Thinking how could I let this happen to me again? This pattern? Uneducated to say anything else; I hang up the phone. // Dear dairy, // // Today has to be one of the absolute worst! I found out that my “best friend” was hanging out with the guy I have a huge crush on alone; leading to feelings of her own. I’m still confused as to why she would hang out with him knowing everything she knows? The worst part of this whole conflict is that Dan (the one I’m crushing on) liked my best friend, Breanna, last year. But Breanna never even gave Dan a chance because she was convinced that he was a creep and weirdo. These reactions from Breanna caused Dan to move on. When he moved on, he started to talk to me and we got to know each other, becoming really close friends. Eventually I started to like this kid and he liked me back! It was a perfect match. At least that’s what I thought. Brittany didn’t really mind that Dan and I were talking because she never liked him, right? Wrong. This is how I look at it, when she could have had him she didn’t want him, but when her best friend was with him, she had to have him. Confusing? I know. Messed up? Completely. The sad part is this is not the first time this happen. // // Until next time, Aubrie // A few days pass and I still haven’t had a full conversation with Breanna, we were trying to avoid each other as long as possible. When school came on Monday Dan had walked me to class, but you can tell I was uncomfortable because Breanna was right behind us watching. Breanna than pulls Dan away from me to whisper something in his ear and giggles; he smiles, rolls his eyes, and catches up with me. // Couldn’t she tell that Dan wasn’t interested? That maybe she should just back off and be happy for me? Of course not. // I pull Breanna aside after class and ask, “Breanna can I talk to you later, it’s kind of important?” “Yeah sure, tell me now.” Confident aubrie says, “I do really like Dan, there’s your answer.” “Aubrie so do I, but I guess you can have him because you called dibs on him.” // I’m not really sure as to why but that statement made me so angry that I could feel the steam coming from my ears. // “Not dibs, because he likes me back and were happy, so you should accept that and be happy for me. Besides you had your chance.” “No, Jessy I didn’t have a chance with him, because you called dibs on him; giving no one a chance.” // Are you kidding me! She did have a chance last year, because he liked her so much! Why is she so hypocritical? And stop saying I have dibs on him! // “Bre, if you were my friend and you cared you would just accept it.” “Aubrie, of course I care about you. So if it means that much I will back of.” // Does she really mean that? Probably not. // // Dear dairy, // // I just got back from school, and it was defiantly not an easy day. I did finally talk to Breanna and asked her to not get between me and Dan and she responded with a yes. I’m not too confident with that yes though. I mean I know she will still flirt with him and try to make him like her, but than just say its “unintentional”. Maybe I am just judging her too quickly? Maybe she will really consider my feelings? Unfortunately she’s not the only one I have to worry about; Dan. What if Dan likes the attention that Breanna is now giving, and just leaves me hanging? Is this relationship even worth all this stress and confusion? I have so many unanswered questions that I don’t want answers for. // //  Until next time, Aubrie // // Dear dairy, // // As usual I was right. It’s been two weeks since I’ve talked to Dan, my guess is because he’s been in a foreign country and has no service, or dropped his phone is a swamp lake with alligators, or went skydiving and dropped it on the way down? Maybe? When I come back to reality, it’s probably because he’s now interested in Breanna. Maybe I’m just thinking of the worst? I’ll give him three more days to contact me. // // Until next time, Aubrie // Yes! Finally a text message from Dan! It was a serious text message too, “Hey, can I tell you something but you can’t tell anyone else?” Scared to reply,”Go ahead, I won’t say anything.” “I think I’m starting to like Breanna.” // At that moment I literally heard my heart break. I felt my heart fall right into my stomach; I had no words like my throat was closing. I became so red as if I got an instant fever. I began to think why would he even tell me this? Suddenly I thought it was so I would stop liking him, but that was a horrible way to tell me that he as moved on. Right? I Mean I never felt so betrayed and alone. // I finally respond, “Again?” “Yes, But it’s different this time,” he said with laugher “How is it different?” I said with more seriousness “It’s different because I know she likes me back.” // I was right, again! Breanna didn’t keep her word and back off, she did the opposite and told him how she feels. I ended the conversation with him, because I had nothing else to say. I was going to confront Breanna and tell her how much she hurt me, but I didn’t even want to. I just wanted to run away and forget about everything. I wanted to escape. // A few moments later I get a phone call from Breanna, but I ignored it several times. When I noticed that it was her tenth time calling I picked it up and I hear her crying on the other line. When I hear her tears I totally forget about the whole Dan situation and I was truly concerned. I ask, “What’s wrong!” She could barely talk because her breaths were so short from crying her eyes out, “I’m so sorry.” “For what?” I said curiously “Dan just told me how he feels and I swear it was //unintentional//.” // Wow, doesn’t this sound familiar? I told you she would say it’s unintentional. Personally, I thought she was being a little dramatic the way she was cry. I thought she lost a relative or a pet. // “It’s okay Breanna, just stop crying.” “No it’s not okay, I thought I could back off but I couldn’t.” “Its fine, I’ll talk to you later.” // Dear Dairy, // // So this is the update, Dan likes Breanna now and Bre likes Dan. Breanna had told me earlier today that she is going to tell Dan that she doesn’t like him; so I can have him. But, you know what, I don’t think I like him anymore either. Honestly, I’m kind of glad all this happened because I now know Dan’s true colors. What I mean is Dan would just leave me for Breanna, and if I were to be his girlfriend I would want to be the only girl on his mind and I defiantly wouldn’t want to be scared of losing him to my best friend. This experience was defiantly traumatic but it was a learning experience. I do sometimes wonder though if Breanna never came between us if Dan and I would be something right now. I guess I’ll never really know. And I think I’m okay with that. As of right now, Breanna and I are closer than ever. I couldn’t even tell you how that happened? I guess it’s because I realized she sacrificed her feels for me. Dan and I are still good friends, but that’s it. Even though when were together there will always be that chemistry. Breanna and Dan are hardly friends, she thinks he’s a creep and weirdo again. What else is new? // // Until next time, Aubrie //