mirror+lake


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__mirror lake__

we ran around all night foggy rumors filled the ears of everyone and anyone who cared enough to listen

we drank champagne while we hid from scolding eyes in the dark loft with one window to the night one window to the lights

it was scalding and tender but then stars came out in my eyes and the voice that came out of my throat wasn't my own

we went up and down in mirrored elevators acting like the glorious shit we were ravished and exuberant red-faced and unusually arrogant

boys whistle sitting getting stoned around the alpine steps try to be hot and sleazy how about desperately easy?

you got down on your knees to pray to somebody you don't even want as i get bullet holes through my neck for each shameful thing i've ever done

your world and consequences made my mind come back as you stood around getting lost in visions of fake perfection and pride for the loss of your childhood, good for you

that was when the lake called out asked me to take a look in the film of water that covered the ice, the unfrozen layer a mirror unmoving

my skin turned blue under the navy sky which soon fell asleep behind the rains that would come to crack the ice and it would accept me at once

how i wanted this lake to hold me! i wanted then to slip in through the rain-cracked ice awakening as it freezes your bones

to fall to the lolling wakes to float away as this shell this awful, ugly shell drops and rests as sand spirals

i can't, i had no business with what i'd found you hadn't even realized i had gone to the lake, to try to die

your intoxicated mind saw me as a threat for what? i'm still a child you think you're mature? you think you hold my hands now?

don't you dare keep me close 'cause i'm no threat don't keep living by that code a true friend betrays the hardest

how grown-up can you be now? i held you up as you made that walk of shame to view yourself as you wanted to be the fluid of a pretender still wet on your lips

the alcohol had all burned up we watched our tired, young eyes in the mirror of the elevators and watched in terrified amazement as our friends could no longer see us